that killing pain, it agonizes me.. ENOUGH ! its enough i say!
hurt by fake smiles, raped by the injustice commited in those filthy, horrible acts
there's no human being capable of such dispicable acts... perhaps a beast, perhaps the demon itself
i cant take it,... im really sorry but i cant take it anymore,
the screams, the insane and sadistic actions, the violence.. the words you speak.. 'dont worry everything is going to be okay'' SUCH TERRIBLE LIES , LIES LIES LIES ! there's no truth in those words... this never was a happy family... never will... NEVER EVER will,
sure this hurts me very much... but the things that kills me inside, little by little, silently, everyday, it's called the injustice
nothing can be worst to me than the injustice, its everywhere and all around
dont take me wrong... i commit injustices myself, but im concious of it, and im not proud... and yes... later i will be truly sorry for that... but then i remember... all the injustice i have commited it was always to make other people happy, and never to myself
because i knew, those who suffer from my injustices didnt deserved the happy life i always wanted...
That really happy life... simple... not expensive and nether with lots of handsome man... just a happy family, A TRULY happy family...
and now! NOW that all the tears have dry, now that the feeling, that was constantly hurting, in my weak... and still strong heart is hidden very deep, very very deep; I raise my head and start a new path, leaving everything behind trying to find that happyness everybody talks about... perhaps a mith... anyway this will be my last try, because the stapples and tape who support the little weak heart are no good, the heart cant take another strike... the only one who can cure the poor heart is happyness
hmm i lied! i dont only want happyness... but if i can get it is okay!, i also would like it to appear in a shape of a young man... and then if possible i wish that happyness could evolute to a man a woman and a healthy child... and i SWEAR ! i truly truly swear !!, that i wont let that child with a sad weak heart...
i will give her everything i didnt had ! and i will help her to find happyness.
but for now... i will try to find that young men... if he trully exists i dont think i have to wait long...
my dream of building a home, a beautiful happy and colourful home... it will never be forgotten
because... i know ... there's lots of people out there like me... just trying to get to know a little bit, a tiny tiny bit of happyness... and unfortunatly... those people are always going to exist... because like i said, injustice is everywhere and all around
and its trying to get you and if you let your guard down it will trully eat you alive.
