Rabbit

'Don't play dumb... you know it's over! It's no use trying to create fake expectations, come on... at least be a little fair with yourself, IT'S OVER, this is never going to be the same again. Yeah it's not easy, but it's going to eventually happen so, forget it.'

...
Fuck!

Why? why did you had to be so fucking important?

Why did you always have a huge impact in my life?!


It's really hurtful you know? I know you are being honest and trying to help me, so I can let go the lies in my head, but it hurts!! It really really does !!

And the worst is, You don't even realize how much you break my heart everytime you spill out those cold words.


It's always so easy on you,

I was the one that make this relationship stronger... I was the one that even started it.


You could at least thank me, because I know that you enjoyed it!

You loved when you knew you were being loved, and still... you didn’t even gave me a clue!

How could I know if I were being loved back?

You let me suffer and do the things all by myself,

You didn't even make a move while you enjoyed being touched with the small hands that gave you so much pleasure,

''Without thinking I put my hand on your neck. You say nothing and you do nothing.

I'm gonna sing the last lullaby for you while you smile at me.

I wonder why I fell in love with you. Impossible love.''

You knew I was being hurted, you saw the tears in my eyes, you saw the moments that I could no longer force a smile, still your reputation was more important, your pride was above the love you felt...

Don't deny! I know it was there I SAW IT in your eyes!



'What's wrong?' You knew what was happening...

'N-nothing!' I faked another smile.

'Oh come on... you are strange... tell me.'

'Well... would you let me kiss you?' I looked to the ground I was sad...

'Yeah, why are kisses so important? I think there are lots things more important than a kiss...'



Yeah, I agree... but kissing you was the only way that I thought you would finally confess your feelings.



And still I didn’t kiss you, I tried to believe it was because of my respect to you... But...

It was obvious that I was scared, I don’t have the confidence to be rejected by you... it would kill me,

But yeah I was fucking scared, I didn't wanted us to be the same,
I wanted to love you and to be loved back!

that wasn’t going to happen... was it?


society would never allow it,

 
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N.A.
Okay minha amada gente xD, eu sei q ta confuso... e uma porcaria , mas este blog é o
unico sitio em q posso falar livremente e escrever o q estou a sentir na hora,
*foi mesmo para isso q eu o fiz, para quando me passar da cabeça ou tver uma vontade
enooorme d desabafar e deitar tudo ca para fora poder escrever aqui, portanto...
a maior parte do q encontrarem aqui nao vos deve fazer sentido...
escrever as coisas d cabeça quente pode ou nao dar bom resultado xD*
 
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Forty days of sinner’s rain

Today she told me that rain stops people's lifes...

i dont really think that way...


Rain makes people find a new way, choose a new path in their lifes!

Do you think the sun is shy? ... *giggles* ... maybe he is.


In my opinion, when it rains, it's because of people's sins... the sun is punishing us.


And he uses the rain to wash our sins and take them far far away.


And when he appears again, we are pure... well ... sorta,


But people don't learn... and continue. The sun is going to freeze us all. *sigh*


Look... it's raining again, and it won't stop.


I wanna see the sun... i miss him, i miss when i could play outside, i miss the heat... i miss the light!,


... why do i talk?... it's not like i'm going to be listened, aw geez., i'm tired!...


i give up! continue people... FUCK, KILL, HATE, who cares? no one cares, I CARE, but it's just me , and i'm probably gonna commit the same sins that you did, or maybe even worst.



oh, the sun is back, i'm probably gonna enjoy it until some guy decides to beat up his wife and kids,



what a wonderfull world this is, dont you think?